We're moving in a little more than a month!

And I'm freaking out! I have no packing started and we don't even have a place to live yet. I'm not a person that can just wait until the last minute to find a place and not be stressed. Every other apartment we've gotten we had at least 2 months in advance. Considering we will want to move in 6 weeks, I'm stressing. Big time. I looked online this morning and couldn't really find anything. Ryan swears we will find a good place, in a good area, in our price range with no problem. I have no choice but to believe him. But I will continue to freak out until we have a lease signed.

I'm also worried about moving and Kenna. She learned to walk here and knows our layout. I hate that we have to move and she has to relearn where everything is. And then after we move and she gets settled, we get to bring home the new baby and change her life once again. 2 big life changes in just a few months. It makes me sad. I'm hoping she'll take to our new place super quick. I want to find a place that has a similar layout to ours now but I don't think thats very likely. So she has to learn our apartment while I'm learning how to get around a very big, very different city. Its just all so stressful. Then we have to find all new therapists, doctors, etc. I'll have to re-explain everything about her to all these new people. And she has to get use to them all.

Its not going to be great moving away from all of our family. My support system is going to be 2-2.5 hours away. No more just dropping her off when we want to go to dinner or a movie. No more having my mom come after work so I can go to the doctor. I'll have to take her everywhere with me. Fun stuff. When the new baby comes and Ryan is out of vacation time (about 2 weeks after he/she is born) I'm left to take care of 2 kids alone. With no help. In a new city. In the middle of winter. Lord help me. Its definitely going to be an experience for sure. I know a lot of families that live far away from family so this is nothing new to them. I'm sure some people will read this and think "psh I do that and more every day!". But when you are use to having all the help you want (and don't want sometimes) its hard to do it all alone. She isn't going to get to see her grandmas and grandpas every weekend. Its a huge adjustment for everyone. The grandparents aren't too happy about it all either. I see a lot of tears being shed on moving day. Which, I remind you, is in like 6 weeks. I just keep saying to myself "We will find a place and we will get it all packed" because we have to. We literally have no choice in the matter. And thats both reassuring and ridiculously stressful.